There\u2019s this place I go sometimes. I have told people about it but never brought anyone there. They don\u2019t understand it. They don\u2019t know it as well as I do.<\/p>\n
And I don\u2019t want them to ruin it.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the place I go where the music blares in my ears and the words from others are muted under the music\u2019s hard foot.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s called Home.<\/p>\n
Home is with music at every step. Music without words. Home wouldn\u2019t want to distract you from what is going on with meaningless words.<\/p>\n
Home is filled with violence and love and death. Sometimes it is filled with menace and cruelty. Sometimes it is full of blood.<\/p>\n
Sometimes happiness abounds.<\/p>\n
Here I am not myself. At Home I cannot move my own limbs and I cannot always speak. All I do is watch. I watch other people at Home. I watch them fight and rage war against each other. I watch them struggle to find themselves and struggle against each other. I cry when they die.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I find my voice and shout at them. They do not listen. They cannot hear me.<\/p>\n
Sometimes people ask about my Home. They ask how I do what I do. I tell them I don\u2019t do anything.<\/p>\n
I just sit and stare.<\/p>\n
They always look at me a little weird. But they\u2019ve never been there and they will<\/i> never be there. So I suppose that\u2019s all right.<\/p>\n
I tell people about those I watch at Home. They smile and laugh.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut you created them,\u201d they say. I shrug.<\/p>\n
I did not create them. But they cannot know that.<\/p>\n
Someone asked me once what I love. They asked me what makes me tick. I told them I live and breathe to be at Home. They arched a brow and looked me over.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBecause Home\u2026It is everything I wish to be and everything I hate. It is all that I love and loath, all that I desire to be changed and all that cannot be changed. It is full of love I cannot have and is bleeding with death. It is full of people I care about and people I wish would end.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt is full of me. Writing\u2026It is full of me.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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