5.24.22<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Talks with my therapist\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You\u2019ve got a sweet family.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Thank you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Thank you for sharing them with me.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Thank you for being part of it, for however long you\u2019re here.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet I had no expectations entering this relationship. I tried to keep myself from committing, from falling too quickly. I tried to keep up a wall to ensure I would not be hurt, to ensure I would not be too much. I told Janet that I didn\u2019t know how long this would last, and that\u2019s okay.\u00a0That’s okay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet how much I liked you. I wanted to be your girlfriend early on, but feared expressing this desire. I found myself unsure yet of how you\u2019d react, unsure if you\u2019d be surprised by my eagerness. I tried to keep my distance. I tried.<\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet I made you a key to my house, something I never did for anyone else before. I gave it to you the night I told Janet that I loved you. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet that you said you loved me first. On the couch in your little cottage, you held me and breathed those three words into my lungs. I told Janet how much it meant to me. I told her how it felt to fall for you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet I asked you to Pride in Boise. I asked you to spend the weekend there, to attend with me. The event is not for months, a distance into the future that I try not to schedule out with someone new to my life. I told Janet that this makes me feel unsteady, makes me feel vulnerable to be hurt. I am planning this future with you, and building an idea of what that might be. It will hurt if you end up not being in it.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I told Janet about our weekend together, about how I told your mom that she has a sweet family. I told Janet how your mom replied, and how, for a moment, I stood there, in stunned silence. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I want to be here. I want to build a future. I do not want there to be doubt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For however long you\u2019re here. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n For forever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I told Janet I had no expectations entering this relationship.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2025,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":[]},"categories":[283],"tags":[871,158,12,814,795,238,466,834,872,97,37],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-733174.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p27tjX-CI","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2400"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2400"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2400\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2401,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2400\/revisions\/2401"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2025"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2400"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2400"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2400"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}