4.1.22<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I read three different articles on when to say \u201cI love you.\u201d I read them while smiling at the messages you sent me. I read them when feeling my heart swell to I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend <\/em>by Girl In Red. We\u2019ve been dating for two months. This surely must be too soon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n The articles all declared that the best time to say it is when you feel it – that there is no \u201cright\u201d time. But surely, two months must be too soon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n One suggested that I say \u201cI\u2019m falling in love with you\u201d first, to test the waters. The thought of uttering those words makes my throat tighten. Surely, I must be moving too quickly. Surely, this must be too soon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n My chair creaks as I lean back, take a deep breath. I admit that I feel like I\u2019m falling in love with you to my therapist, with shaking hands and nervous words. I doubt myself. I doubt my authenticity. This is my first committed relationship like this. Do I really know what I\u2019m feeling? Do I really know the meaning of my heart? I think of you and smile. The article advises to differentiate between infatuation and love. They list how to tell if you\u2019re in love. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Do you feel like you can be yourself?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Do you feel like they will not judge you for being authentic?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Do you feel like you\u2019re a better person, even when they\u2019re not around?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Do you find their quirks endearing instead of irritating?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Do you enjoy conversations with them? <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n I do, I do, I do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n This list is not helping me. Am I sure that\u2019s still not just infatuation? Am I sure that\u2019s not just\u2026 something else? In between infatuation and love? Is there even a word for that?<\/p>\n\n\n\n I fret about what this could mean. I fret about saying it too soon, about scaring you. I don\u2019t want to scare you. I want you to stay, and I\u2019m worried that these words will slip from my mouth before I have any ability to stop myself. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I almost said it to you last night, you know. As we were drifting to sleep. It sat on my tongue, and I found myself unable to say a word, for fear those might be the ones tumbling through my lips.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You have already made me trust you much sooner than I often allow myself to trust. You have lowered my walls much sooner than I ever do. Surely, I cannot be falling in love. Not at two months.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think of you. I think of you, and I smile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think I very much so I am falling in love with you. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I read three different articles on when to say \u201cI love you.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2041,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":[]},"categories":[525],"tags":[158,157,12,814,821,795,376,238,466,834,114,97,813,37],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-3679453.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p27tjX-BL","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2341"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2341"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2341\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2342,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2341\/revisions\/2342"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2041"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2341"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2341"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/winter-publishing.com\/welcome-to-winter\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2341"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}